when 14 year old me woke up.

Circa 2002... when 14 year old me woke up.

Going through old boxes and stumbled upon things I had on my mirror in high school. I remember when everything changed my Freshman year of high school.

I was at a summer camp. One of my friend's younger sisters said that I wasn't fun to be around because I always complained.

I didn't get mad. I got introspective. I went on a walk though the area of trees and hills nearby. Alone. I cried. I thought about who I was and how I was showing up in the world. And I realized that she was right. And I promised myself to change.

I walked out of the trees with a promise to no one but myself and the sky to fake a good attitude until it became a part of me. Not toxic positivity. But just to stop being such a pessimist. To be a better human to be around.

I walked out of that forest into a better me. And I'll continue to walk into the forest... get introspective and walk out changed. Again and again and again. On repeat.

I promise this to myself and the sky.